Misunderstood expectations consume me.

Ok I was being a bit dramatic before but it's needed in my line of work - media is the world of divas and I'm not nearly are showy and unique as I need to be - what do i need to get noticed, apart from my hair being red...dreadlocks anyone?

My admin/writer Yixiang is going on a last minute trip to China to see her family before she starts her new course in computer design - I'm really pleased she got on it - she has soo much potential & patience. I am, however, disappointed she's leaving - she's developed as a person and it'll be sad seeing her leave this week. Hoepfully in September she may come back part time but...

I wish my colleagues would stick around - when i make a good team - it so much hard work and I'm even having this human feelings called 'liking' and I'm gonna miss some of these lazy ass slackers...not that she is, she comes in late sometimes but she works with drive and passion and I admire that !

She likes hazelnut chocolate so i'm going to bring some goodies in Wednesday to say thanks (i'm not in on her last day...) ahh well they are all slowly leaving...

On a random note my boss'"s Ex girlfriend Katherine is coming in for a visit and basically make a point of him not being a perve. Fingers crossed she's a midget! I don't get how he 'apparently' seduces so many women - he can be so darn right rude -opening that mouth is a death sentence for the listener - he can talk for the world and about any old crap too. If talking was an olympic sport he's be undefeated!

I must drink more tea so i'm on top form when she arrives, I can't look dumb or too offensive - it's probably a test to see my reaction - thought his last girlfriend was a picture - she was a bee's hive short of a drag queen. So much for 'natural' beauty aye boss? Lol I'm not even being mean, I was confused and bemused - still am slightly!

I got in today around 9.10 and low and behold I was the only one! Not the first time but literally the second person to come in was at 10.30 and that's th CEO. The writer/admin girl isn't feeling ill and wants to 'talk' - never a good thing so will be in the afternoon. Our writer come editor is doing tuesday to friday then going part time next week. Our writer/marketing research girl is on holiday and then has one week left with us :(

Annoyingly the last marketing girl sort of left without a proper goodbye but said she'll come int to return our electronic pass...I wonder why she bunked off, she was so enthralled to begin with and we let her try a bit of everything -which was her wish and poof - interest gone.

is it me or am I the only goomba left?

Awww it's been great!

Wednesday night after I shot off at 6.20 I got home in time for mye and my mum to go catch a movie. A 2 hours Bollywood extravaganza - it wasn't bad at all. Despite the tacky ad's it was a funny love story - not too cheesy, good direction and the songs were ok. Not into bhangra but the ending theme was phat. A really good westernd club tune. The name is: Love Aaj Kal - Saif Ali Khan is still looking good - weird with a turban but whatever rocks your boats guys !

Thursday was my day off - I was chilled out, Dee wasn't free to meet up but asked her to take the next thursday off for moi. It was inevitable I wasn't going to feel well - the weather was terrible - the rain was fierce me and dad ended up driving to the gym to pick my mum up. There was no war SHE was going to walk home in that weather- lol and ruin her hair?! Heaven forbid !

Friday was terrible I had the stomache cramps from hell - I ended up calling the office at 8am left a message at reception so i wouldn't have to get up again at 9.30 to tell the office. Sue was lovley and told me to have a good weekend - I can't belive Bobby got me calling her Francis for weeks! It's a good thing she dyed her hair brown now as they did look somewhat similar before - or maybe I'm tlaking poo I I'm not sure if I've actually since Francis...

Bed was the only thing on my agenda yesterday. I got up around 2 and started my True Blood marathon, I'm now onto series 2. After that's finished it'll be recapping on Lost. Started downloading some new RPG's for the DS - including Hosigami, Lost in Blue, Lunar Knights & Space Puzzle Bubble ! Called the office at 5.30 just to check everything was ok. Poor Lilly was ill on Thursday and didn't come on Friday either - maybe the swine flu finally hit her? Well it's hard to belive her sister & sis's bf getting it and her NOT - they do leve with each other.

Gen didn't turn up which was weird - maybe her mum's court case on Wednesday didn't go well?
Spoke to Bobby he didn't sound as angry as he ususally does- perhaps he got a lot of work done? Normally when he hits around toungue wagging all day it frustrates him and then takes it out on me. I'm glad I've training Liz to have common sense and she helped him with interviews *Phew*

Why is it whenever I have hot chocolate on an empty stomach I get a tummy ache?

Is it the 3 spoons of sugar?
The intensity of the chocolate mix?
Chocolate & bile clash?

Chocolate in any form is bad. Mmmkay?

I had two oranges before hand - maybe the citric acid rocked the boat for me?
Last night saw a bizarre program called 'Super Skinny VS Super Sized' - great bedtime tv guys ;)
Apparently, one shot of Sambucca is 109 cals, a pint of lager is 250, Wine is over 150 - it's shocking should everyone who liks to binge drink just quit eating towards the end of the week? I don't drink and I certainly don't diet either but my friends being on' weight watchers' is driving me mad. The beginning is agonizing, them watching me eat like normal. The accusing stares and strong wanting of your delectable goodies. From then on they get into a routine of eating small portions whether it be salad or one creme egg a day - now when they see me eat my normal lemon chicken & noodle then begin to gag, how rude! I paid for my meal to enjoy not be be watched or vomited over! Weight watchers encourages eating disorders to be honest. You should be able to eat what you want but with reasonable portions and a little exercise.

Mine is normally walking to and fro from my train station to home otherwise 30 mins on the treadmill. I'm gone off the gym, I'm not into punishing myself anymore - I'm content being 'average' just as long as the Tommy Hilfiger Jeans fit - I have noooo problems. i only vomit when there prawns & dirty salad involved, yeah I mean you florette crispy salad! Never again!

FooD Journal

Special K cereal with semi skimmed milk & 2 sugars
2 oranges
1 tea with semi skimmed milk & 2 sugars
1 hot Chocolate with 2 brown sugars & semi skimmed milk.

I'm not dying for food but am content, I'll probably be rabid at around 7pm. Hopefully if I get home on time i can get changed, grab a snack then go to this 3 hour musical with my mum. I mean Indian movie, mu mum LOVES them. She deserves a day off from my dad & her dramas.

I've been feeling really 'free' or 'sporadic' recently, morely likely to do something random.

Now it depends on what you class as 'random' - my random would be to dye my hair with henna and get ginger hair and keep it curly rather than straighten. I wear more fitted clothes around the house. My self image dosen't sting me as much as it did before I feel ok about myself - I'm not the thinest i've ever been but most of my clothes fit - I eat to make me feel full not happy. I admit I did overdo it this weekend...

I've also decided that my freak of a brother who keeps poking my face has diease or shit on it and that's the reason I'm getting spots - he did it again and that area is now inflamed and has a big nasty spot. It's disgusting I'm going to break his arm if he does it again, I don't care if he's skitzophrenic I am not going to let myself be victimised.

Shows I've been watching recently that cheer me up - Desperate Housewives which i thought was similar to Sex in the City - it really isn't I quite enjoy the jealousy and mind tricks - reminds me of my boss. Tru Blood - is essentially sex - but with Vampires! I like how the main girl isn't exactly good looking - really odd if anything like the main protagonist George from Dead like Me - now she was weird looking and cynical as a cat. I'm on episode 8 of season 1, gonna finish watching it beofre other bro comes back. Need to do some editing in my room for tommorrow's homepage. Really sucks that Lilly has swine flu (or playing hookey) cause it means I loose my weekends and evenings picking up the slack.