Misunderstood expectations consume me.

Last night was one of those weird nights - I had a nap during the day - big mistake - and therefore I watched any old rubbish to get me to sleep - 'Desperate Housewives', then 'Samantha Who?' then 'Supernanny' and my personal favourite 'WifeSwap USA' - I had already seen the same episode int he morning so i managed to stumbled to the wall and turn the power off and roll back into bed for a deep sleep.

Somehow I entered a 'Dreamquest' this is where I have an interactive dream which is more of an omen of what is to come. It starts me arriving to a meal late, I end up sitting with Louise & new boyfriend (?) whilst she finished up I end up with a few shopping bags- was that why I was late?

However some of our friends who have moved on to the pub/club have left their jackets (Gina left her jacket on a table when we went to Louise's party recently) so I grab three jackets plus two mobile phones - silly cows leaving their shiz behind for me to pick up. I then get distracted by more stuff -this time discounted 'paperchase' stationary (probably coz there was a sale when me, Af & Taz went blue water recently).

Zuri (friend from Benefit Cosmetics) comes running to me saying she left her jacket - I then dig in my bag for the bright blue jacket I picked up except it was no longer blue, it was a bogey green with shiny buttons - she said it was hers and was very expensive. We'll I have to agree if it's a mood jacket changing colour to your mood. I then left my bags and went with her to her new work place at a posh restaurant and sat and drank hot chocolate with her round the back.

However a strange woman came in shortly after talking of curses and bugs - somehow centipedes began to crawl from under my mug. Nice.

I wake up staring into the whiteness of my ceiling - it's 8am i decide to sleep some more. I now have a curly afro and a head ache.

I had a strange dream 2 nights ago - I was at party, no a celebration maybe a wedding? - everyone there was dressed so elaborately, a few people wore ballgowns and a few wore ethnic outfits like saris, shalwar & kamises. I recognised a few faces from school like Afet, Catherine, then a few from Uni Caroline& Kuldeep. Before I could probe them into why we were there - a look of alarm spread on their faces and everyone dispersed but I can't quite rememebr if it was an organised chaos or I just panicked. All I know is before I knew it we were all in a mine shaft and I as usual got separated.

Again whether or not I walked off is another opinion but this is all I can remember and well it was like I was following a feeling, a clue a separate route. Along I was finding wordsripped and thrown ont he ground and throughout I felt a gaze watching me. I didn't feel scared - just confused. Eventually I came to a dead end - a balcony over a big empty space. Like something out my my RPG games except I found a book. Ont he front was a poem something talking of a childhood love burning till now and it was signed 'Raza, your future Husband & Lover' I was shocked and as I re read the poem I could now hear his voice reading it to me, i looked behind myself then below at the empty space and he was standing there looking up at me and then turned and walked away. This time a resonance from the game Project Zero lept at me. I flipped the pages of the book to find it was a blank sketch book - only one page had been filled - a self portrait of himself in an amateur anime style.

Was it a present for moi ? A symbol of his love? Abruptly I awoke on my back, looking blankly into my white ceiling - I normally have nightmares when i sleep on my back, was this one too - me marrying my obsessed 2nd cousin.? Bizarre feelings overcame me for a few hours.

I finally decided to get up and make the most of my sunday and catch some rays in the garden. I finally wore my H&M red boob tube tiger dress. Grabbed an old excericisjng matt fromt he shed, put on a towel and lay in my own sweat. Momi occasionally walked around and sat in different areas watching me but mostly guarding her domain.

Yup it's that time of year, the next MCM is 2 weeks away - I need to revamp my costume or do something different.

I've actually really been looking forward to it - I've written a few articles already to go into the archive for later and a couple for sure to go into the next few programmes - one for sure if my 'fringe' feature - sci fi programme with Joshua Jackson in it (Pacey from Dawsen's creek). Also did a big feature on 'Grange Hill' being more than a kids show.

This years confirmed voice actors are:

• Kathy Najimy has provided the voice of “Peggy Hill' from 'King of the hill' 14 seasons and going on...
  

• Kyle Hebert voice of Ryu - Street Fighter IV, Kamina -Gurren Lagann, Kiba - Naruto, Vato - FMA and Aizen - Bleach, Dragon Ball Z - Gohan, Ouran High School Host Club - Kazukiyo Soga.

• YURI LOWENTHAL voiced Susuke Kururugi - Code Geass, Sasuke Uchiha - all from Naruto, Jinno/Kuma - Afro Samurai and for th eyounger at heart Ben Tennyson (Ben 10). Game roles - Dissidia: Final Fantasy - Cecil Harvey, Luminous Arc - Heath (uncredited), Lunar: Silver Star Harmony - Alex Noa (uncredited),
  • Prince of Persia 1,2,3 - The Prince, Prinny: Can I Really Be The Hero? - Turmeric, Silent Hill: Shattered Memories - John, Suikoden V - Kyle.

• TARA PLATT (yuri's wif-ey) voiced some amazing characters including Temari - Naruto, Lisa Yadomaru - Bleach, & Tokiko Tsumura - Busou Renkin. Game roles - Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World - Raine Sage, ObsCure - Ashley.

As usual I'll be stewarding - making sure there are no shenanigans & or dodgeyness in general and get as much celeb sighting as pikachu possibe ;)