Love Proclaimed
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I had a strange dream 2 nights ago - I was at party, no a celebration maybe a wedding? - everyone there was dressed so elaborately, a few people wore ballgowns and a few wore ethnic outfits like saris, shalwar & kamises. I recognised a few faces from school like Afet, Catherine, then a few from Uni Caroline& Kuldeep. Before I could probe them into why we were there - a look of alarm spread on their faces and everyone dispersed but I can't quite rememebr if it was an organised chaos or I just panicked. All I know is before I knew it we were all in a mine shaft and I as usual got separated.
Again whether or not I walked off is another opinion but this is all I can remember and well it was like I was following a feeling, a clue a separate route. Along I was finding wordsripped and thrown ont he ground and throughout I felt a gaze watching me. I didn't feel scared - just confused. Eventually I came to a dead end - a balcony over a big empty space. Like something out my my RPG games except I found a book. Ont he front was a poem something talking of a childhood love burning till now and it was signed 'Raza, your future Husband & Lover' I was shocked and as I re read the poem I could now hear his voice reading it to me, i looked behind myself then below at the empty space and he was standing there looking up at me and then turned and walked away. This time a resonance from the game Project Zero lept at me. I flipped the pages of the book to find it was a blank sketch book - only one page had been filled - a self portrait of himself in an amateur anime style.
Was it a present for moi ? A symbol of his love? Abruptly I awoke on my back, looking blankly into my white ceiling - I normally have nightmares when i sleep on my back, was this one too - me marrying my obsessed 2nd cousin.? Bizarre feelings overcame me for a few hours.
I finally decided to get up and make the most of my sunday and catch some rays in the garden. I finally wore my H&M red boob tube tiger dress. Grabbed an old excericisjng matt fromt he shed, put on a towel and lay in my own sweat. Momi occasionally walked around and sat in different areas watching me but mostly guarding her domain.
Again whether or not I walked off is another opinion but this is all I can remember and well it was like I was following a feeling, a clue a separate route. Along I was finding wordsripped and thrown ont he ground and throughout I felt a gaze watching me. I didn't feel scared - just confused. Eventually I came to a dead end - a balcony over a big empty space. Like something out my my RPG games except I found a book. Ont he front was a poem something talking of a childhood love burning till now and it was signed 'Raza, your future Husband & Lover' I was shocked and as I re read the poem I could now hear his voice reading it to me, i looked behind myself then below at the empty space and he was standing there looking up at me and then turned and walked away. This time a resonance from the game Project Zero lept at me. I flipped the pages of the book to find it was a blank sketch book - only one page had been filled - a self portrait of himself in an amateur anime style.
Was it a present for moi ? A symbol of his love? Abruptly I awoke on my back, looking blankly into my white ceiling - I normally have nightmares when i sleep on my back, was this one too - me marrying my obsessed 2nd cousin.? Bizarre feelings overcame me for a few hours.
I finally decided to get up and make the most of my sunday and catch some rays in the garden. I finally wore my H&M red boob tube tiger dress. Grabbed an old excericisjng matt fromt he shed, put on a towel and lay in my own sweat. Momi occasionally walked around and sat in different areas watching me but mostly guarding her domain.
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